As an African-American woman in the acting industry, the pursuit of suitable roles often resembles a treasure hunt filled with uncertainty and disappointment. Upon receiving the coveted "You have a new role" notification, I eagerly open the app, my heart brimming with anticipation for the potential opportunities that await. As I delve into the role descriptions, I scan for the one that resonates most with my identity and skills. Yet, a disheartening trend often emerges: "Heather – 20s-mid 30s, Female, All Ethnicities...".
This seemingly inclusive phrase, "All Ethnicities," stands in stark contrast to the names listed for other roles – names that overwhelmingly reflect a stereotypical white demographic. This incongruity leaves me with a difficult decision: to audition or not, despite the overwhelming odds stacked against me.
If I choose to proceed, it's with a glimmer of hope, a belief that perhaps my exceptional performance will transcend racial barriers and secure the role. If I succeed, I'll have unwittingly contributed to their "diversity and inclusion" quota, becoming a token for their self-promotion. Yet, it would be a working token, a step forward in my career.
However, this optimistic scenario rarely materializes. More often than not, my audition request is met with silence, a tacit acknowledgment that I don't fit the predetermined mold.
So, why perpetuate the illusion of inclusivity with the phrase "All Ethnicities" when the reality is far from it? Honesty and transparency are crucial in this industry, allowing actors to make informed decisions and allocate their time judiciously. Instead of wasting precious hours chasing roles that are essentially out of reach, I yearn for opportunities where my talent and identity are genuinely valued.
The casting process should be a realm of equal opportunity, where actors of all backgrounds are given a fair chance to showcase their abilities. Until this ideal becomes a reality, the pursuit of roles for African-American women will continue to be an arduous treasure hunt, filled with unfulfilled hopes and unfulfilled dreams.